words of confusion.

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 01:23:37 GMT

livejournal is gay. my life isn't.

this is for someone special

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 20:27:19 GMT

hi cassandre.

bye cassandre.

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 02:36:37 GMT

oh and today's my mommy's birthday

happy birthday momma.

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 02:35:26 GMT

hi. i am alive. todd is curling my hair. summer in aspen was the best. fall quarter was a wreck. winter quarter is going well. home in two days. where will i be this spring? who knows......

until then.

summer 2007

Wed, 30 May 2007 00:04:37 GMT

what am i doing this summer? i'm moving to aspen, colorado for the entire summer. i leave on the 7th of june which is next week and will be returning either 13th or 14th of august (if i decide to not go on a backpacking trip with friends for few days after I finish working) then moving back to rochester 18th/19th of august for soccer.

aspen should be a quite interesting experience because there's no internet, sidekick service, nothing. it's all nature. if you want to hear from me at least some how, give me your address and i will send you a postcard saying "hey! i'm still alive!" (comments will be screened)

catch you end of the summer. have a good summer, you all. xo

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 21:25:19 GMT

i had the best valentine ever last night. it began with drinking and ending up getting way wasted and agreeing to snowboard in the parking lots (long sheets tied to the back of the car) and just go crazy with that. hahahaha.

i love snow!

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 20:13:43 GMT

...it's not worth going to classes anymore.

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 08:01:32 GMT

this is my winter schedule
http://schedule.csh.rit.edu/?s=qnsjTy6

i've decided to not study abroad in croatia this spring anymore because of classes. i don't want to wait until NEXT spring quarter to take them when i want to take them this year to get over with it since i have all same classes for the year.

although, i might go to brasil this summer for soccer camp just because i want to become a professional soccer player.

god. brasil? id get killed on the field

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 05:50:42 GMT

i'm in the mood to update a lengthy post since i haven't done that in quite a while.

i'm going to make new quarter resolution (todd's idea) and they are
1) get toned up
2) snowboard twice weekly (feel free to come with me. i'm going tues/fri or tues/sat)
3) get A's
4) give a fuck in photo for once since it's my major
5) hang out with friends i barely talk to anymore because i miss em so much and i need to stop being a shitty friend

my winter quarter schedule is absolutely crazy. i have only one hour break on tuesdays from 8am till 10pm. but hey, at least i have fun classes. sort of.

anyway.. it is now the 2nd week of thanksgiving break which kind of sucks because all of my friends are back at school far away and i don't really have much to do other than sit on the couch watching lost season 2 and getting my ass even more flat, visiting neil for a night, my 21st birthday (which i'm not even doing anything for my birthday), and pack. my thanksgiving day was great, i woke up late, got dressed, and headed over to my grandpa's house where i got kind of drunk by drinking delicious wine my mom had bought. it is called da vinci. i ended up eating way too much that my stomach was in pain later in the evening.

i am twenty one years old in less than a day and .... that means i'm 22 in a year? that's pretty fucking scary.

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 16:45:33 GMT

i can't wait to shred.

god, hurry up. 1 more week.

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 16:06:42 GMT

i am awesome because i registered a running course for this quarter and i showed up only twice. i ended up passing the course. my brain is dead and gone. no more finals.

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 07:09:34 GMT

unity for gallaudet!!!

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 17:30:27 GMT

so i've reduced the usage of sidekick and developed a new pet peeve..

new pet peeve:

when people talk on sidekick during a conversation. get a life.

why not?

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 05:07:33 GMT

x if answers are true

*Appearance*
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[X] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x ] I wear glasses.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger
[ ] I have two or more piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles.

*Family/Home Life*
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

*School/Work*
[x] I'm in school.
[x]I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

*Embarrassment*
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ x] I've had my pants rip in public.

*Health*
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[ x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

*Traveling*
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

*Experiences*
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've flown kites on a rooftop.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.

*Relationships*
[ x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I miss someone right now. (DJ)
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

*Sexuality*
[x ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x]I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I am not a virgin.

*Honesty/Crime*
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ x] I've been arrested.
[x ] I've shoplifted.

*Drugs/Alcohol*
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[ x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[x ] I've snorted cocaine.
[x ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I have to see a therapist.

*Death and Suicide*
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x ] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.

*Materialism*
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

*Political/Social Attitudes*
[x ] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm very outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal.
[ x] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I'm religious.

*Random*
[ ] I can sing well.
[x ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I like white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] My answers are totally honest

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 22:28:19 GMT

so, school started. it's good to see familiar faces again. i've been hanging out a whole lot with people. getting close to a few. good crowd over here. i have had two of my five classes so far this week and today's wednesday which is a little weird to me but it's all good. photo is okay, the teacher loves deaf people because he has a hearing problem. m&p of photo is definitely going to be a challenge but it's easy if you put in effort.
last thursday before school started, sean came and i was the most comfortable i've been in months. i'm not sad he left because he will be back in a month and i need my space. if he lived in rochester, that would be a different story. while he was here, we both went back to my home for a wedding. the wedding was simple and interesting. i don't have any pictures.

yeah, i look forward to this year.

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 13:24:24 GMT

I don't understand why I get so excited to see deers in my backyard, not at RIT. But I just saw two baby deers and they were so cute! Looked just like Bambi. Of course I had to think of Amy when I saw them.

Tomorrow, I'll be back in Rochester. I'll be back late afternoon because I might be going out to eat with Todd and whoever else is available at the time. Hi.
Hmm... I love coffee.

yad yad yad.

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 06:37:39 GMT

goals for this fall

1) have a much better body and a hard ass before thanksgiving break
2) eat so much healthier, cook dinners as much as possible
3) work out at least 6 times a week with sunday off
4) meet new people
5) be in bed before midnight or 1am during the week
6) work as much as possible and save money
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8) get above 3.5

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 16:31:54 GMT

when is everyone going back to school?

I think i'm heading back aug 18 - 19 - 20. sometimes around there

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 03:46:43 GMT

being twenty years old is unbelievably pathetic sometimes. hurry up.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 04:14:28 GMT

this year is going to be quite a party year. i just promised myself that at every party or whenever i drink, i'm going to pee OUTSIDE. i swear i pee every two minutes when i'm drinking and i can't help it. i feel so bad that i 'waste' water.. poor enivornment. the grass needs my urine anyway.

implant

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 04:26:59 GMT

Everyone's getting cochlear implants and it's amazing. I'm glad Steph and Allison are feeling better now!! It's strange that they've been sick and such because almost everyone I know who had the surgery was fine. Allison wants to know my experience so I felt like typing it out here because I'm sitting here waiting for my cheesecakes to be done which isnt for another 45 minutes.

I got my cochlear implant freshman year of high school which was .... six or seven years ago. It was end of May and I didn't have to take final exams which was the best part of the whole surgery. Anyway, All I can remember when I arrived in Boston, we ended up getting a hotel right across from New England Medical Center since I live an hour and half away from Boston and we didn't want to leave at 1am. In the morning, I was scared shitless and pissed off because I wanted to do my hair and look nice but you're not allowed to wear make up or anything. We arrived at the hospital and got me ready for the operation. All I can remember is getting onto the bed and they were putting me to sleep and I literally passed the fuck out right away. I do remember going into the operation room and everything was so white. After the operation, in the recovery room, the nurses had the most difficult time keeping me awake because I was still passed out. Actually, that whole day, the nurses couldn't keep me awake. I was asleep for the entire day/night. It sucked because of course, I had to pee a lot from the fluid thing but I was unable to get up because I was soooo dizzy that if I sit up, I fall. That caused me to press the button to have a nurse come and let me pee in a bedpan and let her wipe me. HAHA! Those times were the only times I was fully awake. The next morning, I was being forced to walk a lap around the hospital to make sure I'm okay to go home. I couldn't even stand up straight so I had to wait until late evening to be able to walk. Finally, I went home. I don't remember the ride home at all. When I arrived home, I went straight to the couch to sleep. Sleep was all I did all week. I was asleep for the most of the week. That's it.

That's my story. Lame, eh?

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 01:29:04 GMT

i haven't had a piece of gum in a week. that is a record.

babbling.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 09:26:43 GMT

i love my breasts.

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 10:58:18 GMT

fall is here. that makes me happy.

i rule. 21.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 02:31:15 GMT

vail: why are you deaf?
samantha: why am i deaf?
samantha: because you put your dick in my ear way too much.
vail: lovely samantha..yes that's why ur deaf